Friday, April 27, 2012

Still Going

I haven't posted in a while, so I fell down a bit on that part of my new behaviors around weight loss.  But I have been tracking my points daily, attending additional meetings, and I've even made some new Weight Watchers friends.  I think that's the part I'm most excited about.  Two weeks ago, I told my leader about this blog and she suggested that I meet another member who has a blog.  We finally connected yesterday and definitely clicked.  She even introduced me to another member who happens to be her neighbor.  Click again!  I look forward to getting to know both of them better.

Both of the weigh-ins I didn't post about went well.  I'm down to 191.4 pounds.  189.6 pounds is my 20% milestone, so I'm close!

A bunch of friends and I have been doing a 5K every month; we've got one tomorrow morning.  I'm looking forward to it.  After the race we'll go out for brunch, I'll come home and take a hot bath, and then take a nice nap.

I'm between semesters in graduate school and I have a few days off next week, so I'm on a little bit of a vacation.  Feels good!

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Yeaaaaah Boy!

Still no response from the boss on my reply to her last message.  And I found out that I was one of three people who experienced her wrath this week.  Not sure what's going on with that.

Great news!  I hit my regular meeting and found out that I lost 3.4 pounds this week!  So I now weigh 194.2.  Woo hoo!  Wonderful motivation to continue the behavior I implemented this week.  It feels really good.  Right now I'm doing a lot of praying about the motivation for exercising and eating healthily.  I want it to be about living a long and healthy life, not about appearance.  Before I got sober, that was the goal of my weight loss.  For me, that thinking is the beginning of a slippery slope into a focus on materialism vs. the focus on spirituality that I want my life to have.  Knowhuttumsayin'?

I exercised this morning; got 4 activity point from a Bowflex workout and a walk on the treadmill.  I've been watching an On Demand show from 2006 called ArtStar; I love me some reality while I'm walking on my treadmill.

Got all 6 HCs, tracked, and stuck to my points.  I did swap all 4 activity points.

Breakfast: (10 Points Plus)

Abundance Apple Cinnamon Oatmeal (4)
2 TBSP slivered almonds (2)
2 tsp olive oil (2)
Honeycrisp apple, chopped (0)
1 cup Silk light vanilla soy milk (2)
Coffee (0)

Lunch (8 Points Plus)

Chobani 0% Greek Yogurt Pomegranate (4)
2 TBSP slivered almonds (2)
1/3 cup granola (3)
1 Honeycrisp apple, chopped

Dinner (13 Points Plus)

Mixed green salad with red bell peppers, sprouts, mushrooms, and green onions (0)
2 TBSP slivered almonds (2)
2 tsp olive oil
1 oz. gorgonzola cheese (3)
4 oz. chicken breast (4)
1 Almond Joy, snack size (2)

Total for the Day: 32 Points Plus

Belated Post for Wednesday: Good News and Bad News

Yesterday was a great day and a weird day.  I walked into the office and found good news: the network was back up and bad news: a threatening email from my boss.  She accused me of insubordination because I did not respond to two emailed requests for an opinion on whether we should accept walk-ins.  Here's are the problems with her accusation:

1. Her initial email had no deadline.
2. She sent the second request on Friday.  I don't work on Fridays.
3. The network went down over the weekend, so I didn't get the second request until after I got the threatening message.
4. In Tuesday's staff meeting, her second-in-command announced that a decision had been made and that we indeed would be accepting walk-ins.

So I wrote her back stating these things and gave her my opinion anyway.  She has not responded.

When I called my sponsor to check in last night, she pointed out that my response smacked of righteous anger.  And as we in the program know, we cannot afford righteous anger.  It leads straight back to a drink. I need to remember that in all my dealings with my boss; she is unpredictable.  The conversation with my sponsor went pretty late and I was too tired to blog, hence the late post.

So, let's talk health goals.  I did not exercise yesterday; I had a paper to finish for turn in at 6 p.m. so I got up early and went to the coffee shop to write.  I did track, stick to my points, and get 5 of 6 HCs.

Yesterday's Points

Breakfast: (10 Points Plus)

1 Caribou Chicken-Apple-Sausage Daybreaker (8)
1 cup Silk light vanilla soy milk (2)
Coffee (0)

Lunch (8 Points Plus)

Vanilla lowfat yogurt 3/4 cup (4)
2 TBSP slivered almonds (2)
1/8 granola (2)
Honeycrisp apple, chopped (0)

Dinner (10 Points Plus)
3 oz. ground turkey (3)
1 cup tomatoes (0)
1 multi-grain tortilla (3)
2 tsp olive oil (2)
3 oz black beans (1)
1 cup cabbage (0)
2 TBSP light sour cream (1)

Total for the day: 28

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Forgot to post yesterday!


It’s 8:05 a.m. at the coffee shop; I’m working on my paper before heading to work at 9 a.m.

 I was crazily trying to get my paper done yesterday and forgot to blog. 

Our network is still down at work, which is a nightmare.  We had a staff meeting at the end of the day and our second-in-command was visibly and verbally annoyed with our complaints.  She told us to “stop whining and just figure it out, because it could be down for two weeks” so today will be spent implementing manual ways of scheduling and tracking client appointments and recreating a spreadsheet we have to turn in every month that shows when we met with everyone.   Good times.

On my way home from school, I realized I hadn’t heard from one of my sponsees in a couple of days, so I called and left her a message.  Hoping she’s okay.

As of this morning, I’m 90% done with the big paper that is due tonight at 6 p.m.  This is the last big hurdle of the semester.  I have to submit a resume, cover letter, and self-care plan before next Thursday, April 19, and I have two final exams to study for over the weekend, but that’s it for the semester.  My challenge for next semester, which starts May 7, will be to implement some new habits around school.  It would benefit me greatly to figure out a way to get my reading done every week and to stop procrastinating.

I exercised yesterday, but only got one activity point.  Did a Bowflex workout with my husband, but didn’t get on the treadmill.  Got all five of the other HCs, tracked, and stuck to my points.  Almost an identical day to Monday.

Breakfast: (10 Points Plus)

Abundance Apple Cinnamon Oatmeal (4)
2 TBSP slivered almonds (2)
2 tsp olive oil (2)
Honeycrisp apple, chopped (0)
1 cup Silk light vanilla soy milk (2)
Coffee (0)

Lunch (8 Points Plus)

Chobani 0% Greek Yogurt Pomegranate (4)
2 TBSP slivered almonds (2)
Quaker Stila granola, cranberry & yogurt flavor (2)
Honeycrisp apple, chopped (0)

Dinner (11 Points Plus)

3 oz. Jennie-O lean ground turkey (3)
2 TBSP light sour cream (1)
3 oz. black beans (2)
3/4 oz. cheddar cheese (1)
1 Mission multi-grain flour tortilla (3)
1 cup tomatoes (0)
1 cup cabbage (0)
2 TBSP jalapenos (0)
1/4 cup salsa (0)

Total for the day: 29 Points Plus
 
I’ll post again later today.

Monday, April 9, 2012

All Systems Go

Pretty productive day!  Our server was down all day at work, so I couldn't get through all of my work, but I got a ton done anyway.  Had a great conversation with a woman who is interning for us; she is going through a little crisis with AA.  She's got 4 years of sobriety and is getting into the alcohol and drug counseling field; she's worried that she is not able to concentrate on meetings.  I told her that I had a similar problem when I started working in the field a few years ago and it happened to coincide with about the same point in my sobriety; I told her to hang in there and keep talking about how she's feeling.  I'll pray for her tonight, too.

As far as school goes, I still have a faux case study to diagnose before Thursday and the gigantic paper due on Wednesday (it's about 25% complete).  Maybe I should change my blogger handle to "The Procrastinating One."

Got up and exercised with my man this morning; got 4 activity points between Bowflexing and walking on the treadmill.  And man, did I need those points!  I was hungry today. 

Went to the supplementary Weight Watchers meeting I committed to attending.  As I drove up to the building, I saw a gorgeous redhead entering the building; slender build with thick, long hair.  She was in front of me in line and I had to ask her if she was lifetime.  She was; I told her she should be on one of those new posters they have on the walls; I think I embarrassed her, but man!  If she can look that good, credit Weight Watchers, and continue to attend meetings, I am on it.

Anyway, the meeting was very cool; it is at a center in my town that I haven't been to in over a year.  (I go to a meeting in another town on my way home from work on Thursdays.) The center in my has been retrofitted; super-fancy!  It has these nice, almost floor-to-ceiling partitions that separate the weigh-in stations, a flat screen for the leader to use instead of flip charts, new lighting... I felt like I was at the wrong weight-loss program.  On my way out the door, I asked one of the receptionists if all of the centers were going to look like that; she said, "Yes, eventually."  Seriously impressive.

During the meeting we talked about fitness; what our go-to workouts are, what our backup plans are, etc.  One of the women talked about how she has been doing Tai Chi through a community program. I would love to do that; I'm going to look into it.

So today I got 6 out of 6 HCs (water, milk, fruits & vegetables, multivitamin, oil, and activity) for the first time in a while, tracked my points, and stuck to my points (although I used all 4 activity points for dinner).

Breakfast: (10 Points Plus)

Abundance Apple Cinnamon Oatmeal (4)
2 TBSP slivered almonds (2)
2 tsp olive oil (2)
Honeycrisp apple, chopped (0)
1 cup Silk light vanilla soy milk (2)
Coffee (0)
 
Snack: (2 Points Plus)

12 almonds (2)

Lunch (8 Points Plus)

Chobani 2% Greek Yogurt Passion Fruit (4)
2 TBSP slivered almonds (2)
Quaker Stila granola, cranberry & yogurt flavor (2)
Honeycrisp apple, chopped (0)

Dinner (12 Points Plus)

3 oz. Jennie-O lean ground turkey (3)
2 TBSP light sour cream (1)
3 oz. black beans (2)
1 oz. cheddar cheese (3)
1 Mission multi-grain flour tortilla (3)
1 cup tomatoes (0)
1 cup cabbage (0)
2 TBSP jalapenos (0)
1/4 cup salsa (0)

Total for the day: 32 Points Plus

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Confusion about Days

Just realized I posted on Friday calling it Saturday and posted yesterday calling it Sunday.  I don't work on Fridays and I sometimes get confused by that; I'll think Thursday is Friday, etc.  That's my excuse and I'm sticking to it.

Anyway, today was Easter Sunday and it was an okay day. I did a lot more procrastinating.  Got some of my homework done, but not all of it and I haven't written a word of the gigantic paper that is due on Wednesday.  I'm ambivalent about it; I feel like I have just enough time to get everything done, but tomorrow I may slip into panic mode.  I didn't go to an extra WW meeting today like I planned, but I will go to one tomorrow night instead.  There's a 5:00 p.m. one not far from my house.


Went to my AA home group this morning.  The topic was step 6 and I heard a lot of good stuff.  Today's reading from "Twenty-Four Hours a Day" was about not being shy about my spirituality.  I love it when something I'm thinking about comes up in a meeting.  Just yesterday I was reviewing my profile on Blogger and saw that I didn't have anything about spirituality in my interests.  I added God, higher power, and spirituality.  Maintaining and deepening my relationship with God is important to me.  I get on my knees morning and night, saying the serenity prayer, the 3rd step prayer, and the 7th step prayer.  In the morning, I also say St. Francis' prayer.  Sometimes I feel close to God, sometimes I don't.  A few weeks ago I was talking with my sponsor about it and I just asked her, "How do I get closer to God?"  She talked about the fact that she is currently on her own spiritual quest.  She was raised with no spirituality, but is curious about it.  She's attended Jewish, Catholic, and Buddhist services so far.  I'm thinking about following in her footsteps. 

Anyway, I also saw a fellow AA member at this morning's meeting who I haven't seen in forever; we went to coffee and chatted.  Then I came home and napped.  Got up, did some homework, and once again zoned out in front of the television with my man and knitted.  I'm working on this project:

But I'm using a different wool; I'm using Noro yarn.  The scarf is turning out really well so far and I'm having fun knitting it.



And! I tracked, stuck to my points, and got 4 out of 6 HCs.  Didn't get healthy oil or exercise today.

Breakfast
  • Caribou Chicken Apple Sausage Daybreaker sandwich (8)
  • 1 cup light soy milk (2)
Lunch
  • Deep Indian Gourmet Paneer Makhani (5)
  • 1 cup zucchini (0)
  • 1 cup mushrooms (0)
  • 1 piece of high fiber bread (2)
Dinner
  • 3 oz. pulled pork (5)
  • 4 TBSP BBQ sauce (2)
  • 2 slices high fiber bread (4)
  • 1 cup mushrooms (0)
Total for the day: 28 points

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Tracked on a Saturday, too!

Got up this morning at 6:30 a.m., met with a sponsee (I’m a recovering alcoholic) at 8:15 a.m., then hit an Al-Anon (I qualify for that program too) meeting at 9:45 a.m. and met with another sponsee right after.  Came home, took a nap, and have been hanging out watching TV with the man ever since.  I thought about exercising, but didn’t.  It was a cold and rainy day; perfect napping and vegging weather.  I have a bunch of schoolwork to do and in my own inimitable fashion, I'm procrastinating.

But! I did track AND stick to my points! And I completed 5 out of 6 HCs.

Breakfast
·         Abundance Apple Cinnamon Oatmeal (4)
·         2 TBSP slivered almonds (2)
·         2 tsp olive oil (2)
·         Honeycrisp apple, chopped
·         1 cup Silk light vanilla soy milk (2)
·         Coffee (0)

Lunch

·         Panera Thai Chopped Chicken Salad (9)
·         Fruit Cup (0)

Dinner

·         Deep Indian Gourmet Paneer Makhani (5)
·         1 cup zucchini
·         1 cup mushrooms
·         3 oz chicken breast (3)
·         ½ piece of bread (1)

Total for the day: 28 points

Friday, April 6, 2012

Tracked on a Friday!

I had a really good day today.  My classmate and I met to record our third and last faux counseling sessions of the semester and they seemed to go well.  Our professor instructed us to act like characters from movies when we pretend to act like clients when our classmates practice counseling with us.  Today I took my inspiration from Sara Jessica Parker’s character in the movie The Family Stone, specifically the character’s struggle with the family of her fiancĂ© and feeling disconnected from them.  After the fact, I realized that her character had a lot in common with me and with my sister-in-law.  We’re both having difficulties with our fathers-in-law; I’m married to one brother and she’s married to the other, so we’re dealing with the same guy.  My father-in-law has never liked me and I've been married to his son for over 20 years.  My sister-in-law only recently found out that he doesn't like her. I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s a lost cause.  He is who he is and I need to accept him that way, but at first it was difficult to learn about how he felt.  I feel for my sister-in-law.

I spent the rest of the afternoon knitting and watching my TiVo backlog of Jimmy Fallon and The Daily Show.  When my husband came home, we went out to dinner at a restaurant we’ve never been to before, but it had Buzztime trivia, so we decided to try it.  I whooped him two out of three games.  Even better, I almost had a burger but opted for a salad instead.

It’s been a long time since I’ve tracked my points on a Friday and even longer since I stuck to them.  I used all of my weekly points and I definitely got full.  I feel pretty confident that I will be able to stick to my points the rest of the week.  Here’s what I had today:

Breakfast
  • Abundance Apple Cinnamon Oatmeal (4)
  • 2 TBSP slivered almonds (2)
  • 2 tsp olive oil (2)
  • Honeycrisp apple, chopped
  • ½ cup Silk light vanilla soy milk (1)
  • Coffee with a ½ cup skim milk
Lunch
  • Large salad from Leeann Chin (8)
Snack
  • 2 TBSP light sour cream (1)
  • 1 cup Pace picante sauce, medium (1)
  • 14 Baked! Tostitos tortilla chip scoops (3)
Dinner
  • Restaurant Strawberry Chicken salad (20)
  • Restaurant southwestern egg rolls with dipping sauce, 2 (13)
Dessert
  • ½ pint Haagen-Dazs peanut butter & chocolate ice cream (16)
  • ½ cup Silk light vanilla soy milk (1)
Total for the day:  73 points (!)

Today I achieved 6 out of 7 HCs; no exercise again.

Hackneyed; Nevertheless True

* If you always do what you have always done, you will always get what you have always gotten.  - Jane Kirkpatrick

* Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, expecting different results.  - Albert Einstein

I am a 40something married woman who is an alcohol and drug counselor and a first-semester graduate student in psychology.  Because of the rigorous nature of a psychology student's education and eventual work as a therapist, our professors have been encouraging us to engage in therapy.  So I've been seeing a doctoral student from my school for a couple of weeks and I've already had some insights.  One of the biggest was the realization that I don't follow my own advice!  Every day I encourage my clients to:
  • Try something new
  • Journal
  • Find a support group
  • Focus on the positive
I joined Weight Watchers in June of 2010 and have reached the 15 pounds lost mark several times during these past two years, only to sneak back up again.  I found myself thinking that my goal is impossible and wanted to give up.  On my way to my weekly Weight Watchers meeting yesterday, dreading the scale, I had an epiphany:  I need to do something new.  I need to journal.  I need to increase my support.  I need to focus on the positive.

Here are the commitments I am making in pursuit of my weight loss goal; I will:

1. Track my Weight Watchers Points Plus (PP) every day

2. Fulfill "Healthy Checks" (HCs) every day

3. Blog about my progress every day (journaling)

4. Attend at least two Weight Watchers meetings each week

5. Exercise at least four times each week

So, here are my stats as of yesterday’s weigh-in and measurements:
  • 197.6 pounds – 12 pounds lost since starting the program on June 3, 2010.
  • Waist:  40 inches
  • Hips: 45.5 inches
  • Thighs: 25.5 inches
  • Arms: 14 inches
  • Points Plus Target: 28
Yesterday I used 32 PP total.  I also got 4 out of 6 HCs completed; I only got four out of six vegetables/fruits and I did not exercise.

Last night, I tracked down the second meeting that I will attend; it will be on Sunday at 10:00 a.m.

I'm feeling different today; I'm sure that fulfilling these commitments will help me reach my goal.  If you're reading this, I would love to know about your own journey.  What are you doing in pursuit of your goals?  Do you have any tips or tricks?  Do you have a blog? I hope that this blog will help me to build more support.

I'll be blogging every night; the main purpose is to talk about my progress toward ideal health, but I'll write about graduate school, therapy, etc. along the way.