The Aftermath

Yesterday was a rough one, but I made it through without overeating or indulging in any other addictive behavior designed to "make me feel better."  I left my sponsor a voice mail last night after posting and woke up to a text saying that she's sorry she's out of town when I'm going through this crap.  Me too!  But I'm okay so far; if I really need to talk with someone, my grand-sponsor is ready for my call.

Today was another interesting day.  Got to work and found out that my supervisor resigned; he sent the owner of the company an email and went home on Friday afternoon (I was long gone when he left).  Over the weekend, he forwarded a copy of the resignation letter from his Yahoo address to all of us.  He wrote some pretty damning stuff about the boss and ended by accusing her of creating a hostile work environment due to his race and national origin (he's from a country in Africa).  I joked with a co-worker that it's definitely a hostile work environment, but I don't think the boss is creating it based on race or national origin.  Anyway, the boss somehow found out that he forwarded the message to all of us and decided that we needed to meet about it. She called us into the conference room and read the message aloud, refuting each line.  ::sigh::  I need a new job.

Let's see.  Weight Watchers wise, I did pretty well today.  Did a Bowflex workout (2 points), got most of my water, all of my fruits and vegetables, all of my dairy, two teaspoons of oil, and my vitamins.  I went three PointsPlus over for the day, though.

Today's 10th Step

Good Stuff

• Got up and exercised
• Went to work (had thoughts of calling in sick, but didn't)
• Saw my therapist
• Felt better than yesterday and capitalized on it by recognizing it and considering the reasons for it
• Talked to my brother about my conversation with my dad
• Made salad
• Did the dishes

Selfishness

• Can't think of an instance of selfishness

Resentment

• Felt resentful of my co-worker who I will call Charles; I find him patronizing and sanctimonious

Dishonesty

• Can't think of an instance of dishonesty

Fear

• Can't think of an instance of fear

Remedies

• I prayed for Charles for a while a few months ago; that was when he worked in our other building and I didn't see him very often.  He recently began working in my building and will be around much more often.  Time for me to pray for him again and to see him as the Big Book says: "When a person offended we said to ourselves, 'This is a sick man.  How can I be helpful to him?  God save me from being angry.  Thy will be done.'"