One of my sponsees is really struggling. Today she left me a message saying that she had an argument with her husband, went to a bar and had two shots of tequila, and didn't want to meet at o'early thirty tomorrow morning unless I "made" her go. When we talked a little while ago, I said, "I'm not going to make you do anything. The questions are, do you want the program? Do you want to be sober?" She said she does. We talked for a while and I suggested that she pray for one thing: the faith that working the program will bring relief. She has four children under the age of 9 and she just spent two days with all four of them; a "real trigger" as she calls it. Then she argued with her husband. I reminded her of what the Big Book says about being disturbed and how it is always something wrong with us. She said she agreed, but she seems to pay lip service to a lot of the program ideas that I share. She'll agree now, repeat it back, say I'm hitting the nail on the head, and a week from now she will slip right back to the "oh poor me" crap. God, this is a sick person. Show me how to be helpful. Save me from being angry. Thy will be done.
Weight Watchers-wise, it wasn't a perfect day. I went over my points by 12. I got my water, dairy, 5 fruits/vegetables, oil, vitamin, and 4 points of exercise.
Today's 10th Step
Good Stuff
- Met with one of my sponsees
- A guy flirted with me and I didn't feed into it
- My Saturday AA meeting was awesome and I made everyone laugh when I shared: "I'm a weepy m-effer."
- I listened patiently to my aunt-in-law's stories as we walked around the mall
- I can't think of an incident of selfishness from today
- I can't think of an incident of resentment from today
- I can't think of an incident of dishonesty from today
- I'm becoming a bit more apprehensive about my assignment that's due Wednesday; I haven't done a thing on it and I'll have to jam it out on Monday.
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